On Reading and Interpreting

On Reading and Interpreting

 

Reading is infinite. Meaning itself is infinite. Reading is a way of explicating the implicit. But as meaning is a conscious experience, and all minds are separate, we can only “read” the feelings of others by sympathy, by mirrors and echoes, by mirror cells.

I wish to slash and jab at an idea with some quick ideogrammatical set of anecdotes.

I just heard a demonstration of a robotic noise I could not understand, in an Instagram video. It sounded like robotic noise. After the original message was played, a woman saying a sentence, when I heard the original, I know understood it. The naivety of the noise was lost forever.

That implies only one message could have taken away my audio innocence. But this is not the case. The first ambiguity could have been “fulfilled” in other ways, each negating the others forever, tainting ambiguity with dogma.

In another experiment, scientists flashed Chinese glyphs through subjects retinas too fast for them to see. The subjects were then exposed to a much wider set of glyphs and asked to choose their favorites. They tended to choose the ones they had a subliminal experience of, and gave reasons like they were cute or had a funny shape.

A legend of the Buddha is he visited an ashram or whatever of 1000 fire worshipping priests. I guess priests were more accessible then! They grew in hives! Obsessed with fire as they were, he hypnotized him with his Fire Sermon and converted fire from succa (sweet and good) to dukka (bad and suffering). The legend claims he converted all 1000 of them to Buddhism with a single sermon. There is some truth in this legendary story, hagiographically false as it must be in its hyperbole.

I have told you that the adam and eve fruit and snake story comes from enki eating the forbidden fruit and taking a woman from his own rib. Sumer, 2000 years before Jews were invented, the original and better was told. The story in the earliest Hebrew version is already a gloss, a take, a mistake, an adaptation. It has been edited by subsequent biblical redactors. It has been translated into Greek and Latin and English. The vague subtle ambiguous puns, metaphors, and poetical parts are lost. Robert Frost said “Poetry is what is lost in translation.” The J writer had no intention for this to be the doctrine of “original sin.”

Commentaries are the serpents snare: wisdom without effort. Easy as eating a fruit. To read the text without layers of translation is impossible. The text is hopelessly infected with layers upon layers of interpretation. The King James Bible manages to sound like it was written by one person. A translators’ illusion. And they translated it according to the dogmas and catechisms and creeds. They MADE it agree. In style and meaning, it is FORCED to agree. Every single commentary out there, and especially the pious, the pious lie, PIETY IS A LIE! They are all lies against the text. Not just the Bible but all scriptures everywhere. Literature. Language itself. YET 100% of the original meanings are still there, in the language, in ALL human languages, the Tao te ching, the Koran have influenced ALL languages everywhere for all time. But the original meanings come out hermetically, occultly, as if pirated in and hidden and bootlegged into your unconscious. Like the robotic noise. Every word every said in the entire universe vibrates somewhere within your literal flesh now and forever. Time is an illusion. All that has ever happened is happening again and forever within your very body.

Then the Elohim were in the dark, because they were blind, they did not know they were within the light. Darkness is the womb of all light: Mattria is the dark and AMA the light. But They said Let there Be Light and blinded themselves to universes and realities, all but their own. ALL SEEING IF A MODE OF BLINDNESS. To see this, you can’t see that. To know this, you can’t know the other. Can’t even think it. Some things are unthinkable to the human species because of choices we’ve made very step of the way.

The seer is a dreamer. He succeeds when he interprets all dreams as his dream. Freud as perverter, Freud as true follower of Joseph and Daniel as perverters, for Yahweh is a blind god, forbidden visual images, a demon afraid of the light, as with Jacob, he sees his own light, and can’t see the light of other gods. Dawn would have stoned him. He works indirectly though the Father of Lies, his own shadow, and Freud is a true disciple. As we all are of him and our own preferred gods. We don’t know we are living in a universe supersaturated with a superflux of endless life and gods and beings around us all the time.

Carl Rogers, America’s psychotherapist, the father of American therapy, early in his career spent months with a schizophrenic woman. His method of unconditional positive regard and letting a patient heal themselves failed in this early case. Hearing her systematic delusions, her consistent interpretations of all her reality, for weeks and months, started to get to him. It started to make sense. Too much sense! Rogers fled with his wife for an extended vacation.

For those who don’t know to flee, they become followers, and a new religion is born. As kings are made by shared belief, and money is valuable by shared belief, gods are born and become mortal, and then immortal, by shared belief. They become conscious and think through us, and then graduate and think beyond us. If all mankind died, our fictional characters and our gods too would survive us.

Blake converted one of his angels to a demon and said. This angel who is now become a Devil is my particular friend; we often read the Bible together in its infernal or diabolical sense which the world shall have if they behave well. I have also: the Bible of Hell, which the world shall have whether they will or no.

Every heresy to be called a heresy forces the pious to define themselves, and so, the heresy becomes a heresy only by forcing the pious to reactively become the counter-heresy of the new. Two new heresies with every innovation and gradation. They pretend the new meaning is traditional and they read it back into the start. This is a lie. The pious always lie. PIETY IS A LIE.

Whitman encoded some homosexual eros in his poetry that was not recognized until the 1970s, and once seen, amazed it was ever unseen. His homosexual and heterosexual code is deliberate and subtle and subliminal. And very much may we say so much more! Whitman was never known. He often claimed his friends never knew him. That he was much better and much worse, more good and more evil, thea any had a guess to. But when we read him now, we know he wrote a deeper bible than ANY! He knew himself to be a God, a Kosmos, and often said so. But people say his secret was he was in the closet. So small is the mind of men! We keep our secrets or tell them to hide deeper secrets, from others, from ourselves.

His is an infinite text. An infinite origami. It unfolds itself forever. It is too much in us, we can never get rid of it. It is ours now and forever.

You are an infinite text. All gods and all angels and all beings reside in you. A version of them all in you, just as conscious as you. You are their universe. They are ignorantly considering you the All of all. And that you are. When you know you will have known all along. You were in the Beginning, though you might not remember …

All is thru force or fraud, power or energy, directness or indirectness. Odin is both. As God. We all are both.

We are each a Holy Spirit. THE holy spirit. We are each a new tongue in the universe. We speak English, for now. But if you listen closely, we actually speak another tongue completely, each of us, UNDER IN AND ABOVE everyday speech.

Love Feast

I am piqued and perked and ready for adventure, whether in the form of NewFriends or Fresh Employment.

I still keep my solitary vigils. Tonight i cleaned and prepared Lapamalay, my sacred altar and personal desk, the very lips and intimates of AMA where in divine intercourse we  create and recreate in the generating, regenerating, and the overall romp and wisome way of baby-making together with our writing -- well!

Tonight i delighted to offer a strawberry and grape as a Lovegift to Ama Lama, Guru True, Jamyang Jigme, The All Herself, and enjoined the delightsome cricks to enjoin themselves to enjoying the LoveFeast with me. So we did.

Pics included!

Life is Beautiful!

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DCWJ

Mystic Twins

Mystic Twins

 

There are certain numinous or universal mystic symbols, including the mirror, the eye, the mountain, the cave, and the twin.

Every man is self-twinned. The Evil Twin, or lower half is called "flesh" or "matter" or "The Shadow." Every myth, cult, theology, and religion partakes of these eidolons. Whitman said to get a list of Eidolons. Those are the keys on the keyboard, the lowest images, Plato's Cave that allows the forms of heaven to exist at all, the womb tomb of the skull cavern, the eyes the torches, the flesh tortured with tropes on turning in circles, the Sisyphean sun up, sun down, eternal turning of ex-sistence, standing out, which properly is ecstatic, when enthusiasm, inspired, frenzied, filled with divine breath, the breath of life. All religions use the same shapes and ideas. Enki multiplied the languages to destroy the curse of monotheism in praising Enlil, the god who flooded the world. In the Jewish myth, Yahweh floods the earth for being violent, and confuses the language for man working together at peace. Man overwhelms him each time, he the least emanation of Enki god of writing (ME) ab (semen, DNA), and ab (fresh water).

Odin is the mind and Ymir the body. Odin was called Manu at the start, and Ymir called Tuisto = twist = twin. The twisted one. The evil twin. Cain and Abel. Romulus and Remus. The mystery of identical twins is a UNIVERSALLY NUMINOUS trope that all religions endorse and apply. The monotheism of Mazda, he who gave birth to twins, holy spirit and evil spirit, the later called Ahriman, well these myths are biological. They are in our flesh. They are instincts. Confused only at a superficial level. The level of the cortex, the bark, the thin layer of "No." Contradiction is superficial. Extremes meet. Opposites attract. Infinity is zero. There never was a big bang. We are all the singularity as we speak.

Odin's blood went into Loki, and from him into Fenris Wolf, Hel, the bipolar woman, and the World serpent. The serpent is the umbilical chord. The wolf is the womb. Hel is the fetus. Odin had to be reborn by letting the World, Fenrir, "fen dweller, or swamp wolf" wolf him down, and Odin grabs back the hand of Justice, the "right hand of God" Emily D saw amputated from the deity, from Tuesday, from Law and Order, and war as the extreme. He had to get the hoop of life, Gleipnir, the unbreakable cord that is the umbilical chord that holds us all. No string can be cut. It is only reduced to an asymptotic filament. The softest string. Almost nothing. No string was ever cut or can be. String is Eternal.

We are each self-twinned. The Mirror Image. Mattria at time Zero gazed in the mirror womb and listened to her echoes, pregnant with herself. That is you … right NOW! Never were there two.

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PS

Kha (egypt) means spirit as double. In sumerian and coptic and greek "an" means wind and "animates us" gap, gad, chaos is the double. Ama and mattria. The gas the gap the idealized self between me myself and I. The better self and the evil as twin. For never were there two.

Like protozoa, God emanates versions of himself when he becomes too full of himself. Woman is god. All zoa and protozoa double themselves ... zero and even numbers are female.  Gods emanate. And like protozoa ... for we are all mere organelles for protozoa who never dies nor can ... we molt and pass on. Death is a twinkling of an eye by which the ego I ascends to a greater center. Third eye of peace the butterfly wing tipping kaos in the cyclone.

AYA

AYA

 

The players of the game, nameless, faceless, numberless. Pure play is the only rule of the Game. We do it for the LULZ. Conscience and morality and vice and greed are so many MODES of play, strategies which work better or worse depending on the playing field at hand. The AYA has no fame, no past, no future. They are the fingers of AMA. They are pure play. They play to win and know that losing is just another strategy of winning. Challenging Play is their way, autotelos, the means, and end, and the key to self-perpetuation. The Game is Eternal. All shall win the Game in the End.

I have carefully read the book of Hitler, the writings of McDonald, the diatribe of Luther and such when those thoughts were illegalized by the thought police. It was infamy to even know the names of the books. Nor did they wow me. I took them for what they were worth. Hardly more. They did not win me. They meant something else. How could I be pro- or anti—Semitic? How could I be pro- or anti- anything? Antichrist? Antimormon? True Believer? These are so many deceiving sub roles. The AYA are pure players of the game. Their Way is strategy. All roads lead home. Do as thou List, but follow the path to the end.

I refuse the hypnotism of mass media. Hating this group X was illegal. Now it's in fashion. Hating this group Y was moral, and all who refused were socially stigmatized. Moves in the game. Strategies. They ADOPT the moral tone or the mannerisms of self-righteousness or open cynicism, or sneering disdain. Those are only masks. AYA are faceless, nameless, numberless. They are WEIRDS of pure play. They are the fingers of the All. The All-She, Mattriama, AMA our Mother. We too partake of the All and in ourselves are each an All. We too play the game with and for and against ourselves and all others, always and forever, VIVOCE. Cooperative games and competitive games with and against ourselves and all others in many many ways.

People vote as a newpaper tells them. My friend Iven always followed which way the wind blows so he could fall face down in trying to escape it. For or Against? Meaningless. Good or Evil? Bad or great? These are words that change like seasons or political speeches. Endlessly repeated. Just miming, spellcasting, hypnotizing. A newspaper written 100 years ago could be printed today, with updated dates, and nobody would flinch.

We are not FOR or AGAINST anybody or any group. We play the game. That's all. We are Players. We are AYA. Yet even that, the infinite fingers of the centipedal hypnogorgon who pulls all the strings, that's just the nerves, and every nerve cell is a million times more complicated than all computers on earth put together. Every single one. Every single nerve in your body touches by subtle extensions and quantum entangling ALL nerves everywhere. The brain and mind of ALL.

The playing board is spacetime. The skin of Mattriama. Pure white. Pure MEANING. Sense absolute. Her hair is pitch. Asymptoptic impossible points. She is science, religion, magic, superstition, reason, madness, logic — every mode possible and impossible is hers to own and win by. By winning we are won.

As AYA, we may take a persona, a personality, a pose, an attitude, a stance, a stand. As strategy. Not as autotelic. Winning forever and forever more is the only way to ALLNESS, past angel, god, superdeity, pantheon, pantheism, on up to Whitman's name for the ultimate person: KOSMOS. Such are we already inasmuch as we may see this is already achieved. Not demigods, gods, or even AYA alone, each of us countless millions of intelligences, nameless, all names, numberless, all numbers. The name that can be Named is not the Eternal Name. Undefinable definer of all that is defined? The AYA. That is our means to mastery and all-such ascendence. We are each the formless womb that forms all things.

Life is The Game!

Play or be played

We only Lose when we take it too seriously. Life is far too important to take seriously.
Gravitas is just one more sounding through, one more supersonic device, one more mask, one more persona. All talk is impersonating a person supposed to exist, a fashioned fiction within us.

Prepare to be everybody and everything.

Then your Aboriginal Self will utter the Word none may say, no gods or God or Mattriama herself, your unrepeatable innermost NAME. All must confess Thou Art Lord. The Adored of ALL. Allmother AMA.

Till then, we are AYA.

Worst Customer Service Failure in my LIFE!

Worst Customer Service Failure in my LIFE!

Cascade McDonald Manager deserves to suffer the reign of terror of a that-time-of-month Karen, Karenizing for Justice and all that is Good and Holy fast food. She is our white knight, our Valkyrie -- but I am a gentlemen and would prefer to suffer than to complain at some hapless customer service worker who isn't even responsible for management's follies, wondering how he will pay off his college debt if he can't keep this "least of all possible jobs," feeling abused by self-entitled losers who lack a puppy at home to kick in the face -- apparently.

I work in customer service and have had some "mighty fine gentlemen" as customers, store code at our Starbucks for absolute bitch or cretin-spittle assholes. I never wanted to be a karen. My heart goes out to customer service workers everywhere.

Tonight I experienced the WORST customer service interaction of my long, 45-year-old life. By the end of the interaction, I was seething and chanting, "KARANIZE THIS BITCH" -- though my daughter, who hasn't had panic attack in over 5 years -- she's come so far with her mental health since her tweens! -- back when she was eleven, was having a panic attack and I respect her needs over mine, so I kept as polite as possible.

Wife placed order at 955. She had difficult day with chores and such and wanted us to work out a dinner and was waiting for us to come home so she could sleep. She was holding out, conscientious she, to ensure her family was safe, healthy, happy.

I also told a friend I would meet her online at 1030pm and my word matters to me and my family and friends. I hate to break such duty and obligation as honoring my own word.

We pulled up to the drive thru and a robotic fake-human asked if we ordered with your online app. I said yes. I waited. And waited. And waited. Ten minutes. The other guy who went to your second, farther out, alternative lane got serviced and swung around and got his food. I didn't want to be rude, but I just I pulled to the to the first window. A woman made eye-contact with me and ignored me while she counted out money. Change of shift? I can forgive that. Those are stressful for staff. She made eye contact but in no further way recognized my existence as a living human being. I pulled to second window. Waited. Made eye-contact again, with another staff. Was ignored. Are they being robbed? Should I dial the police? Does an ex gf work here? What the heckles? And they were up! My hackles were jacked, my friend. Not often can I get miffed like this!

I went in to the actual physical lobby to get my order in person, and waited for ten minutes more and at their front desk they ignored me after making eye contact.

I went back outside. Confirmed order with wife. Said it aloud three times to be sure, prepared to say it again. Drove around. Guy in front of me just left after making his order. A man did confirm the order was in the system and to pick it up at the second, service-fulfillment window. Prior guy pulled away. I waited. Again. After five minutes a young woman looked confused that they had no order for me. I asked quietly if they were ill-managed. She looked around cautiously. I said, just nod if your management is bad. She nodded. Her heart looked pained. Shame and terror claimed her face but she hid it under her costumer service mask. Tragic, this one.

I pulled around again and this time the guy taking my order asked me the letter/number code five times. I said, Should I come to the window to tell you? He said okay. I did. I told it to him. He said pull ahead. I went to the second window. They said the order was invalid. Not in the system. Did I go to the right McDonalds? Very much yes, I said and insisted. I gave my order number again and this time it finally worked.

They gave me the blue slushy drink I ordered, twice in a row. Two different sizes. I ordered one, small, and also received a large extra. Confusing! I promised my daughter I wouldn't say a thing because she was having panic attack. I finally did get my order -- we left. And my 16-year-old daughter WEPT on the way home. She doesn't do that. At all. She's hilarious and strong and amazing. They reduced her to tears. And myself to palpitations.

I don't want a coupon, or an apology, or an explanation. Those are cheap and you have a multibillion corporation. You can spit those out like bits of lard.  I had felt my blood pressure rising. I've never had a heart attack but I do take blood pressure medicine. Your entire corporation lacks the resources to pay me back and the level I respect my own time and how I am treated. You lack the funds. Don't try. All I ask is you get your store in Cascade Michigan, 28th street in order, lest some man less self-controlled than me can order in a reign of terror, a reign of Karen, and Karennize your behinds in a way you totally deserve. For my part, I would rather eat out of a city trash dumpster than return to that living nightmare you call a McDonalds!

Daniel Christopher Williston June

Praying for the Impossible

Praying for the Impossible

 

Every single thing you ever ask of AMA, pray, complained, will be answered in the most courteous way. The mustard seed stands for the infinitesimal, the mushroom spore, the thing that is infinitesimally unlikely. Some things really are impossible. Because they are unthinkable. We can never be tempted because the universe herself can't think of the unthinkable. Yet.

An infinitesimal means infinitely small. Chance. The worst odds of all times. It would take a miracle. If you can ask for it you CAN have it and actually do have it. If only you knew: every promise is honored eventually, every wish upon a star or birthday cake granted. For is something is asymptotically impossible to happen, in an infinite universe, it will happen at some time and some place exactly once. And once that happens, the adds improve. Whether if withing ten million years are right this second, every dream, hope, wish, beg, plea, request, bargain, deal, exchange will be answered TO THE LETTER. So my friend, don't be afraid to dream. You will achieve it in SOME WAY this life time, that is the mustards seed mushroom spore infinitesimal. And every lifetime more and more. You grow more aligned to your god till you get everything instantly. Then you surpass him and are under the Game, the AYA, the unnamable unnumerable players of the same. Don't be afraid. Ask and you will receive. Immediately in some infinitesimal way, and eventually, ALL THE WAY.

Every time this happens, the universe grows, and something unthinkable becomes thinkable for the first time. A mustard seed. A Mushroom spore. Somewhere some time it has been answered. Keep praying so it builds resonance over time!

ALCHEMY

Al-Chemistry comes from Egypt

 

The Egyptians of the Chem river studied the ISIS, their river goddess, and learned the art of chemistry. Chem is a river of change. Heraclitus flux. It ever changes AND is ever the same.

Egypt was attacked by a mysterious people called "the sea people." The defeated them only after 100 years of foreign rule. Historians have no clue who these sea people are. But you and I know of course.

In the desert? A sea? Yes, the desert is a sea. We may swim in it as water or walk on it as sand depending on which way we want to move at the time.

Dehydrated water is sand. ALL water ALWAYS has a mineral residue. It is not that minerals get mixed in and boil out. The minerals themselves ARE water. Minerals are water already. We can turn water into sand and walk around it Jesus style. No big deal. We can pull a full river out of a single rock. All earth, all mountains, all sand, all rocks are FULL of water. Rocks devoid of water, electrically charged, is dust. Death. But only in hell does the shifting of dust seem like dust in the wind. The dust is in the human being, and that is the hidden water around all dust all the time.

Every snowflake is unique, every sand particle is unique. Each has its shape, and always will take a mode or overtone of that, and no other single drop of water can freeze into such an angel, such a nerve cell, nor can you ever manufacture a sand that is the same shape. Unless you teleport the sand to more than one place, existing in multi dimensions at once. Every single drop in the ocean remains an individual. Bring it up to heaven and it becomes a snow angel. Bring sand down to hell and it because completely transparent glass. The Saints in revelation worshipped Yahweh on an ocean of glass, throwing their burning gold crowns at him again and again. They are the same thing, mineral water. All water is mineral water. All minerals have water in them. Moses could knock a rock and make it well up not by miracle of god, but MAGIC of God, known to the Egyptians, who converted their lead into gold, the alchemist's trick. Their pyramids appear to be sand to us. They are actually individual drops of water, frozen in time. Alchemical inversions. Nature does this all the time. The deserts don't hid or occult or contain a hidden city. Every sand is a person and place in the shifting sands. To the sand, we move at the speed of light, each person, and we take the sand and dust with us on our way.

Every parasite pays its way. Mosquitos sometimes spread disease. But they are vampires. Vampires turn blood into wine. The viruses inside get turned inside out into inoculations. Mosquitos are needles and shots that itch a bit, that is the body reacting to the MEDICINE every mosquito gives with a bite. Every mosquito bite saved your life. Their spit is medicine. Semen and fresh water and spit is "ab" as the God Enki called his being, the ME, the crystallic logic that seems to move in water, with his "Mes" true from the Ab-Zu touching every single reality. Not the blood stream. That is Mary, the ocean, the mother of all. Inside the blood stream is a river that works exactly in reverse, and its substance is ether. The flora and fauna of the guts is the flora and fauna of the world. The two are one. We are not on earth but walking through our own intestines. Worm holes. Trips through space. Hyperspeed. Hyperreality. As above, so below. As without, so within.

Ice can convert into iron.

Death is passing and eternity is staying. We always do both all the time. Our body is covered in dead skin. Some animals only see our plasma. They call us ghosts. Others just see our skin. They call is Djinn. They don't see the fire of our blood, they see the sandstorm of our circulating skin which also sheds in as well as out. Skin grows in two directions at once and is ALWAYS alive.

The Oak was the first tree. Every tree is on fire. Every single bush is on fire. It is sacred when we can SEE this. Look microscopically at wood and you will see it is literally on fire in tiny ways all the time.

Batteries are polar. They charge themselves in opposite directions. All batteries are an endless source of power. All machines are perpetual motion machines. All life is eternal. The Proto-Life, protozoa by definition never died, but is alive and immortal for all time. The universe herself is that protozoa. The alchemists call her call her Uroborus. She never dies or can. She can only split. And every splitting is a merging Of DNA. Mitosis works in two directions. Literal ALL writing is DNA. Is ME. All writing is a spell. The hollowed out space is hallowed. A void is ALWAYS filled with ETHER. Or spirit. Cancer is not a disease but the converting of the body into a god. It is a lucky thing to die this way, if you only knew! The Indians smoked the peace pipe and became gods. We at this lower place become cancerous too. We don't die at all. We just suffer a bit. There are literally billions of cancerous cells in your body. Your immune system converts them into healthy mutations. Every single DNA in your body edits itself and writes more ALL the time.

Every single drop of water added to the ocean expands into plasma and fills the ENTIRE thing. Every single drop is an ocean unto itself.

And so on.